i prayed to the stars
"make me one of you
i want to shine like you"
my body aches, i want to crawl out of it
i want to be something beautiful

my heart feels so heavy and i never
want to leave my bed / i don't even
know what would make me feel happy anymore
i'll keep telling myself that i'm ok
that i dont need somebody to hold me together and
i'm perfectly compatible to do it by myself
but once in a while i will break
and i will lock myself in my dark room and stare at the ceiling
wondering what i stay alive for anyways